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posted by Jin Yong at 7:29 PM ::

 
maple leaves

The dark clouds left a piece of shadow in our heart
I listen to my long dreary mind
Clear and transparent, it’s just like the beautiful scenery
That I can only see clearly in my memories
Can the heart-broken you continue to love me?
I hold on tightly to your hands that has no temperature
The past sweetness has been locked up by the time
Only the inseparable sadness remains
The slowly fallen maple leaves are like yearnings
I light up the candle lights to warm up the ends of year autumn
The polar lights plunder the sky
The north wind sweep by, I thought of your face
I’ve burnt my love to fallen leaves
But I can not exchange back the face that I’m familiar with
Why retrieval has to be hurriedly done before the winter comes?
Love you, and I travel through time
Two strings of tears from the end of autumn
It has let the love infiltrate the grounds
I only want you to stay besides me
The elegant red rain next to the mountainside
Withering away along with the northern wind
I gently shaking the wind bells
I want to waken the love that has been forgotten
The snowflakes have bespread the grounds
I’m deeply scared that the maple leaves outside the window has already been iced
posted by Jin Yong at 7:25 AM ::

 
amen


posted by Jin Yong at 10:58 PM ::

 
little black box



There are many things that I’ve been suppressing in my life; memories, mostly fragments of memories. I’ve been locking them up for so long...

The bits and pieces; of my childhood - I remember playing in the backseat of my mother's car with the car door unlocked. After a sharp turn the door flung open and at the same instance I was also thrown out the door. Then blackness...not much of memories back then, apart from the scar I got from a small bottle of magnesium liquid which fell onto my face.

My first love – it was very sweet, touched, hurt, pain and unforgettable memory in my life, although it didn’t last long. This is the only one relationship in my life which I gave out without expecting any return from the one I love... but I failed... I cannot take my failure and in the end I decided to leave this place and go over to Australia to start my new life. Ha... seem like leaving cannot help me much to forget... 2 years... I only manage to get my heart back after 2 years...

OCF – “Are you new here for study? Let me bring you to the reception to get your room key and bring you to your room...” She was the first friend I met in Australia –Ming Hui- and –Deborah-. In the following years, I met some important person and good friends in my life… -Kenny-, -Alvin-, -Ve Zhun-, -John Ho-, -Benson-, -Sun Mei-, -Grace-… Guys, thanks for the time that you guys have been spent with me...

27-April-2002; it was the day before my birthday and it was the most terrible day in my life. I lost one of my most closes and best friend I met in Perth. I think no one of you have experienced your best friend holding your hand, helpless and crying in front of you to asking your help? It’s was an unforgettable memories burned inside my heart... yeh... 27-April-2002, 7.15am, Benson past away… I just cannot believe this is the fact, 3 days before he was still stay over night in my room, and I share with him the GOD words, I hugging him when he is feel sad and cry in front of me. But, this is the fact; he is no longer beside us... ... “Jin Yong, I know I’m disturbing you...” “I know that I’m bringing you worry...” “We are good friend forever...”... ... However, I regret not having been able to say goodbye. His condition flared up and stole his strength in a brief period of time... ...

Today I was looking at the sky… walking alone in the city… stranger passing by me... I am being alone again... I am being cold again... I am being depressed again... ...
posted by Jin Yong at 10:44 PM ::

 
my dog


posted by Jin Yong at 12:06 AM ::

 
smile even though your heart is breaking



Do you ever feel like sometimes u just lose faith in everything and everyone and wonder why u're put on this earth? I’m feeling that way now. I just want to get away from it all, just run away to a place where there's no problems, there's no issues, no pressure but I know this place doesn’t exist.

I really envy those people who are able to juggle work, studies and a personal life of their own. every time I look at them I just think to myself, why am I not like that? why am I not able to do that? I’m blessed with a silver spoon hanging out of my mouth but I can’t seem to just differentiate everything. it just clashes into one another and I am just not able to handle it very well.

Calls to XinLiang really made me feel better. how I wish he was here in Melbourne so I can hang on to him for dear life. It’s just hard growing up I guess, and conforming into this mold that u have for your self or u think u should be. I’m losing faith, and I’m searching for something else to believe in.
posted by Jin Yong at 11:29 PM ::

 
uk editional version




posted by Jin Yong at 4:19 PM ::

 
are we normal?

I bet all of us wonder before are we normal?
This question is perhaps the most commonly ask question of our life besides "how are you?" What is actually normal?

In our life, we walk, we talk, we eat, we sleep, we study, we work, we hangout, we meet friends, we date, we marry, we have children, we turn old, we die. This is NORMAL..............I guess this is what this society defined as normal...........
Have you ever wonder, why you should do all this? Perhaps so that you are regarded as normal. This society is sickened by the definition of normal. If you don't do this you are not normal...YOU ARE SICK....or You are psycho.... You should go see physiologist( hey its an encouragable field to take up now CAUSE so many people are not normal now, can earn a lot man) what ever it is......WE just can't break out of this chain reaction that haunt mankind for quite sometime.....particularly people from 20th century.

Even today...every tiny little problem we face have physiological term designated to it......are those people really sick? Or just that they are not normal like others are...........

Human are special in their own way..............PROOF--- everyone's genetic code are different.

Cultures figures, politicians, etc.....its time for them to rethink the definition of normal.............When a country choose a different ideology or what so ever...it is quickly criticize for being not NORMAL.. OR if someone in other culture, He is not normal.........WHY IS IT SO? Because they are NORMAL and others are not...

The world is a better place if we just being normal by not criticizing other for not being not normal OR being not normal by not criticizing others for being normal.....WAT A CONTRADICTING argument....hey LIFE is contradicting. So live our life...

ARE WE NORMAL?
posted by Jin Yong at 2:05 PM ::